I can’t believe how much Sunday’s workshop both wore me out and relaxed me. It has helped me through a life changing event. On the way home I found myself at times laughing uncontrollably. It was awesome. When I got home I found myself whistling and humming. All the guilt, anger, and frustration seem to be gone. I don’t have to carry that pain any longer. In addition to feeling better mentally and physically, I have also noticed a change with the tremors. Prior to my release with David, the tremors came in more of a jerking motion and I was not able to experience them up through my torso.
Since the workshop the tremors have become more like rolling waves. They seem to penetrate deeper into my body. Last night I actually noticed them rising up to my neck. And instead of crying as I did at the workshop, I found myself laughing and not just chuckling, but deep belly laughing. It was kind of funny because when Taylor heard me he came in my room and asked if I was alright. My response was, I have never been better.
For many years I went to counseling, took medications and tried to deal with the trauma in my life. I was misdiagnosed many times. Words like anxiety disorder, panic attacks, depression, and even Bi-polar were used to describe me. I knew they were wrong, but it seemed no one would listen. The doctors kept text book diagnosing me without realizing the depression, anxiety, and panic attacks were all symptoms of a deeper
problem……Trauma.