While I was present and emotionally aware during my TRE session, my true ‘aha’ moment did not fully land until about three-quarters of the way into the session. My general emotional response to the exercises had been one of laughter and an increasing sense of lightness in my body. But then something magical happened. I realized that I’ve been living my life with a critical disconnect between my emotional mind and my physical body. It was as if a sort of ceremony was being both created and experienced simultaneously by these two disparate aspects of me. I described this experience to David as ‘it’s so sweet’, but it’s actually more profound.
I was experiencing recognition of an aliveness that is innate within my physical body and allowing it, with gratitude and compassion, an opportunity to fully express itself without any mental censoring. I experienced my physical body’s natural intelligence. My awareness is that if I take my mental mind out of the picture, my body has the ability to tremor me into a more natural state of homeostasis. What is more difficult to put into words is what this reconnection means. It sounds nonsensical, but it’s a bit like finally getting the realization that there is an older wiser part of me that I have somehow unconsciously been marginalizing.’